Money woes

I'm tired of money.

I'm tired of the fact that there are bills to pay and there isn't enough money for things I want. Like, I want to go out to eat and go to movies, but after looking at how Tim and I have spent our money these past few months, we need to change our ways. We're not thousands in debt. Not like those people we saw on Oprah last week who had the opportunity to work with a "debt doctor", denied her help, and went over $30,000 more in debt last year for a total of over $100,000 in debt. No, we're not like that. But, currently, I think we have around $500 in credit card debt that we don't have money to pay off and that makes me uncomfortable.

The thing is, I want to go shopping. I want more clothes. I want new shoes. I want new decorations for our apartment. I want good food.

I want
I want
I want

I feel like a three year old.
Mine! Mine! MINE!!!

And then there's Paul's not-so-helpful advice in Philippians when he says
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." (4:12)

What is the secret?! How do you live without envy or greed? He sort of helps when he says, "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." (v. 13) but he still doesn't tell me what to do.

I guess maybe I'm not supposed to do anything. I'm just supposed to trust God and be thankful for what I have.

So, God, I trust you in this moment. I trust that you'll help us re-balance the budget. I trust you'll help me live without envy and you'll get us through this. Thank you for your love and your provision for our needs. Help me be content whatever the circumstances. Amen.