Where is your heart?

I know that you're true to me

You're always there

You say you care

I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?

'Cause I don't really feel you

Where is your heart?

What I really want is to believe you

Is it so hard

To give me what I need?

I want your heart to bleed

And that's all I'm asking for

Oh, where is your heart?

It seems so much is left unsaid

But you can say anything

Oh, anytime you need

Baby, it's just you and me

This song by Kelly Clarkson is really resonating with me today. I feel so distant from God right now and it's hard to tell if he's listening. I feel so much pain about so many issues and when even He seems silent I get so scared.

Last night when I was listening to this song, I felt like the part of the first verse which I wrote above really states how I feel about God, but then I felt like He was speaking to me with the last verse I wrote above. He is asking me to come to Him and say anything, anytime. Why don't I do that? I get so ashamed so often.

I am in a hard place right now. I have so many fears.